I'm nothing out of the ordinary. I'm another human being. I'm just another body taking up space, breathing in oxygen while the clock ticks away. I surround myself with people that build me up and make me smile. People who make me feel better about life, loving, living,& taking chances. I'm a pretty tough read because i, like many others, have been hurt by life. I have felt the pain of rejection and abandonment because of people that are supposed to love me but do not understand the meaning of the word, much less how to do it. I have been broken down by lies & deceit, and I now find it difficult to open up & let people see all of me. I have come to understand that i to look out for number one, me, because no one else will, or is able to 100% of the time. Ive come to protect at least parts, the most fragile, as cliche as that sounds, from the massacre of reckless hands. I stand with walls, guarded. I can guarantee one thing: If you actually get to know me, you will experience a whole new part of me. I am trying to repair the life that was pulled out from underneath me. I rebuild daily with the hope that I will ultimately reestablish my life, restoring it back to what once was my own. I am a strong girl,full of determination and passion for living. I have a decent sense of humor but I do not respond well to those who belittle me. Chances are of you think your better than me your wrong. Don't insult my intelligence or my family because they are my everything. I have strong opinions but can admit when i am wrong. I strongly disagree with the notion that people need to exhibit their strength all the time, & even though lately it seems as though it is all I can do. I strive to pick myself up, dust myself off, & walk on my own path, but I don't try to do it alone. I am just attempting to where I belong, to get in where i fit in, and to be around people who love and support me. I am not all that sentimental but I am in touch with my emotional side. I don't like it when people are fake with me, so if you can't talk me/ if you don't know me around certain friends or while you are in certain situations, then you don't really know me do don't bother calling, texting, facebooking (etc) me when it is convenient for you. I'm not a convenient friend. I don't always take the path of least resistance nor do i take the path that is frequently traveled. I make my own way. I know nothing aside from what experience has taught me. I am in no way a philosopher or a great thinker. I just try to find the underlined meaning in life because if there was none things would be much harder, if not impossible. Things in my life are complicated, and that is why I'm hard to read. I'm a book that's been written, rewritten, and destroyed, yet i like to think i am a work in progress that is looking for a better ending. I no longer blame people, the world, god, or anyone/ anything else for my problems. It is a waste to spend your time thinking about how you WISH something was different. The more time you waste pitying yourself, the less time you have to MAKE IT different, to make things better, to simplify life, & to give it new meaning. I STAND UP, i make my voice known, and let it be heard. It doesn't matter if I am one in 6 or 7 billion. My voice is a voice and it matters, i matter. Here I am, just another girl, who is not settling with the cards life dealt her. I am making story known.
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